Faith

**I do not like the typical memoir format. I do not enjoy reading the comic style of writing or even the graphic novel style. Therefore, I will write, not draw my piece.**



Usually when a person says they lost faith, they mean in their religion or in a person. Well in my situation, I have lost faith in myself.

When I first showed up at my freshman orientation at ASU, they told us "Plan for a different career choice, you will most likely not get into the nursing program." Well being 17 years old, you just brush that off and have an "I can do it attitude" about anything. I started out my freshman year with making the Dean's List the first semester but that high note shortly ended due to some personal issues I was having. That spring I failed my first class and got the worst GPA I have ever received.

That following fall I recovered bring my GPA up quite a bit. It was however not the boost that I was looking for. When I most recently met with an advisor, she flat out told me "Well, you are not going to get into the ASU nursing program, but keep applying anyways." Way to make people feel good about themselves ASU. Way to go.

In that moment I knew my one semester of screw up, messed up my whole plan I had laid out for myself. That moment, I lost faith in myself. I lost faith that I could graduate from nursing school. I questioned why I even bothered and why I was wasting my money. It took me a solid week before I recovered and realized that to be a nurse, you had to have a calling for it. Florence Nightingale once said that nursing isn't a job, it is a calling. Even at my lowest I have ever been in my education, that quote helped me know that although ASU may have not been my chosen path, nursing was.